Each time I shelve a project or new start its a bad mark in my psyche, it mars me as a person, a great white hair grows in place of my blond one ( OK brown one ) its another notch in my whipping post. I know I sound dramatic , and it isn't the worse thing in the world like loosing a limb for Pete's sake but in that moment when I stop to think about it I go back and I'm reminded that I never finished. I never finished organizing that closet, or creating that cool colorful container for the kids baby clothes, I didn't finish that painting or poem I was working on, never mind the blog I started that would be my daily journal, I forgot about the new Bible Study book, and the yoga videos I was bent on starting ( yes I bought the pink mat to mark my new start with becoming a de- stressed mama ) I still have new organizers for my socks for the love of frogs! I am my worse example of a domestic mama and I tend to start a lot and forget even more and this makes me feel … sigh… like I failed at something again... something at least for me. THERE! I said it.
I think I need something to look to in the future, something to remind me of my past, something to move me and remind me that I need to be growing ( insert OLD in here ) all the time. I don't want to be the same person I was last week. I want to progress, I think its a natural instinct if you have blood running through your veins, at least it should be don't you think? Regardless I think at my age these small things should not be a big deal but as I stand at the top of My Mountain I look down one side and out the other , down is inevitable and I'd like to at least leave some cool stuff and memories behind and maybe have them organized .
So today , I'm posting Thirty Days of New . Yep, another beginning.
I will learn, , taste , touch, smell, see, listen to something I've never experienced for thirty days in hopes that I grow a little taller by the end I will in other words live with purpose on purpose one day at a time ( because I figured out that I'm not wired for long term goals so daily just might be for me!)
If there is anything I'm good at
its not giving up,
how about you ?
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